Expression of Feelings - SHATTERED....by Meg Lawton

This Expression Of Feelings - Shattered is written by Meg Lawton, a mom, blogger and social activist. I love her writings on parenting, finding an authentic life, facing challenges and so much more.

I like this Expression of feelings - Shattered, because it speaks directly about the confusion, doubt, challenge and joy of discovering an Authentic Self...

"Bit different? Speak with a lisp, or like to read?
Long nose, big lips, small ears,
weird name, wrong shoes, no dad,
no fun, too serious, too dumb,
too tall, too short
too, too, too-
just too something.
There is always
Something.
too loud, too popular,
too shy too,
too healthy.

Can you sing? Shut it.
Run fast, row fast, swim fast? Slow down.
Create? Destroy.
Make a difference? Forget it.
Sensitive? Toughen up,
what's wrong with you?

Keep your head down,
and smile, but not too much.
Be fun, but not a clown
Stand up, but not too tall.
Fake it-make it
believable
Don’t be a try hard.
Try quiet

Yes
Quietly in your room
In tears
with the door shut
shut to the world
shut to the bullies
shut to yourself
all day
long.

That part that hurts-
the part you’ve kept
together
now splinters, shatters and
breaks
into a thousand sharp pieces.
Jagged and dangerous.
Pieces that can cut,
and hurt
another
with just a swipe
or a lashing out.

You stare at yourself
all smashed apart
a mess,
a scary
mess.
Yet
slumped on the floor
through teary eyes
you see yourself
like never before.
In pieces
sharp vivid and distinct,
irreplaceable
reflecting your eyes, your life
your heart.
You see pain, but more -
The light, the strength,
your heart wide open
right there
in beautiful unique patterns
Your pain,
arranging the pieces in ways
that only you
could create.
Yes,
a jagged
and magnificent
mess.
And then you know
there is no “too” anything.
There is only
You."